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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Wed, 23 May 2007 13:03:47 GMT

A hiatus from msn is about to occur for the next 5 months probably but i'll be checking emails at work if you want to email me.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Tue, 15 May 2007 09:49:30 GMT

The day is drawing near... woohoo!!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 12:02:46 GMT

My mind keeps drifting to her and I think about her a lot and yet...

she's someone who's identity i do not know and someone i may or may not have met...

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 15:02:55 GMT

I think maybe it's time to let go of this blog. I've lost the drive to keep it going and merely use it not as a tool to let people know what i've been up to but more as an avenue to share with something about my thoughts in my head.

How strange don't you think. People usually do that with a fellow person but not me because I almost always tend not to share my innermost thoughts. It's my nature.

I actually wanted to sort of construct on paper (computer screen on this i guess) of what my head looks for in the next gf so as to guide me but i've decided not to for two reason

1) i actually know it really well in my head already

2) sometimes ideals don't need to be fulfilled and instead you know when you see that someone

That's my thought of the night. Thanks for listening my errmmm.. my ownself?

hmmm... strange indeed....

Friday, December 22, 2006

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 13:45:35 GMT

It's funny how you look back in time and you see the mark that you've left in people's life at one point of time and vice versa.

Quite often, you move on and leave several people behind (not completely but its not as close as before) but you can never forget the fun, conversations and nonsensical things that you used to get up to before (well most anyway).

I think i'll start trying to find time to catch up with all those that my path has crossed in life at one point or another. It's not going to be easy as i'm seldom on the comp as opposed to last time but i'll try and give it a go.

In the meantime, I hope all of you have a merry xmas and stay safe in every aspect and enjoy the festive season.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 00:40:32 GMT

What if you were sure about something, someone but

You're a million miles away from it..

How far would you go?

What lengths would you go to?

How long would you wait?

It's one of those situations where it's out of your control and the nagging feeling doesn't go away.

I had a thought amidst all these ponderings. Everyday there will be unimaginable number of people nursing heartaches from break ups. My question to each and everyone one of them is 'why would you pine or settle for anyone who doesn't want to be with you, who doesn't want to love you, who doesn't want to be with you through it all, who isn't happy from just taking a short stroll with you?'.

Is it in human nature that you come to expect less or is it that people just settle for less because they fear not having any at all.

Think of it this way if you love milk and desperately crave it:

Would you settle for having to drink spoilt milk than not drinking milk at all? You might say at least there's milk. Funny thing though, if you don't have milk then you just long for that day when u get a fresh glass of milk. If you drank that spoilt milk, high chance that u'll treat it with less significance because it is spoilt or you'll be inclined to bitch about it being spoilt or eventually you'll get sick of it and just throw it away.

Appreciation will never be the same level in both instances..

So once again I go back to the question, how far would you go and how long would you wait to get what you feel is that special something/someone?

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 13:11:54 GMT

We'll do it all

Everything

On our own

We don't need

Anything

Or anyone

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

I need your grace

To remind me

To find my own

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am

All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Would you?

if you did would you know how much it would mean to me

and how long i could keep lying there with you..

if...

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 13:30:18 GMT

So it's been a long time since i've added a substantial entry. Well here's one coming up, newswise at least.

My planned trip back to Singapore before I stay here for good has been pretty much cancelled. I've got a fulltime job as a marketing officer so that's pretty much it. Interestingly enough, i'm not unhappy about not going back. Sure there will be no time to catch up with old friends but life has pretty much moved on and a couple of friendships have been formed here. If it wasn't for sure before that I won't be coming back, it's a definite thing for now.

On the job, it really is a dream job. It is a marketing job but it's a lot like PR although the department will undergo structural changes soon so my title may change. it's still a month by month contract but it's only because it needs to be advertised first and the signs that i'll be there for long is good. Honestly if i could choose to start my career in a working environment, it wouldn't be anywhere else. The people are great and my manager stands at my office door when it's time to knock off, ensuring that i don't put in extra time and just leave my things till the following day (how's that for welfare).

Uni's almost over (thank goodness) and i've knocked back an offer to go for honours as uni has really lost it's lure since i've got a job now. All's good really and i definitely can't complain.

So that's the gist. So long Singapore. It's been fun.....

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 07:40:35 GMT

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me and
I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day (wait for the day)
And the courage to say
How much I love you (yes I do)

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world that I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

I can't stop dreaming of you
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said I love you
I love you too

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Til tomorrow and for all my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
Dreaming with you endlessly

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 15:27:48 GMT

I think i made a right choice when i chose my tennis club. Welcomed and loved. I like how friends here (or possibly just them) are affectionate and even friend's friends. It's a warm feeling. I wasn't really myself and still a bit in my shell and overrawed but i'm getting there.